praise the lord for benzodiazepines.

spent most of day swirling in gaba-induced serenity, eating honey-roasted peanuts and surreptitiously reading the power and the glory under my desk. (the person i was understudying has resigned, and i got to take over her desk. which means my back is now conveniently against the wall and my front blocked by a large orange partition). that graham greene has to be one of my all-time favourite books. survived till 5:30 without any major panic attacks. i have decided to leave my phone off vibrate because otherwise every time anything near my desk moves i feel like my heart stops for several seconds.