Friday, January 18, 2008

because someone made me think of it today

i do worry about money. i don't covet it, but it does occur to me dimly that i'm going to hit the age of 30 with very little squirreled away and a rather uncertain career ahead. i've tried several times to figure out how much i should be expecting to earn when i'm done, and have come up with estimates all over the map from dismal to pretty reasonable.

and no, i still wouldn't have had it any other way, but the feelings are complicated and will be till i graduate; and there is ever the fear that, in monetary terms alone, this is irresponsible and foolish; and that i've made some terrible mistake which will cost me dearly further down the line.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

oh darling. i always feel like i sympathise, because i know exactly what you're talking about, and yet not sympathetic, because to people in the humanities you're rolling in it already. oh! and you have property! hang on to that thought!

Anonymous said...

What Minz is saying is what Evans said - at least you did not lose your science roots when you flirted briefly with the humanities!

And there is always the kibbutz. Hang on to that too!

Anonymous said...

aren't you being overly optimistic in assuming that you'll actually graduate?