some days all i want to do is make lists: places to see before i die, books i read in primary school, people i know but have not seen for more than 5 years, bands i would like to see perform live, scientific theories i think are both aesthetic and have genuine merit, times i've broken the law, restaurants i'd like to eat in, songs whose lyrics i can recite perfectly, secrets, times i've wanted to just let go and scream, ice cream flavors, NCAA basketball champions since 1939, rich people who don't deserve to be, days when i've woken up in the morning thinking: "today is going to be a good day", things i would not do for a million dollars, people who i would like to shake until their teeth rattle, monuments, museums, saints, airports i've been in, nights without sleep, canteen uncles and aunties, movies filmed in hawaii, presents that truly meant something to me, times in my life when i stopped and took a deep breath and actually saw the world for what it was and was still grateful to be alive, songs in A minor, gyri, brands of deodorant, bridges, sources of deep and indelible embarrassment, movies i like because i like them and not because other people do, five things i would ask for if stranded on a desert island, people in my CMC platoon, subatomic particles, things worth living for, things worth dying for.